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sorry, people

2010-01-16T05:31:00.001-08:00

I AM MOVING!!!!!
TO: http://flawed-yet-perfect.blogspot.com/
GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dear Jesus.....

2009-11-21T06:35:00.000-08:00

today's service was great!
=D
Reverant Casey Treat was seriously a one-of-a-kind treat!
hahaha!!!

and mostly,
i got to see my one and only Vincent!
and seriously, long time no see!

finally, i understood that the job thing was not given to me,
not because God is against me,
but me not ready to take on this competition.
i just got to wait,
and not rush the works of God!
because God got a plan for me!
and no path of His will ever lead to a dead end!!!!
God is good!
hahaha!

i suddenly feel so in love with God again!
=))

plus,
i promised God at the beginning of the holidays,
that i will go church twice a week!
so i will!
=)
until i am strong enough to enter the marketplace.

i am waiting and praying for You, Lord........
oh, and i love You!

a job...?

2009-11-17T03:13:00.000-08:00

man.
if i really am called,
then this year will be the year of my very FIRST job!!!
how cool is that?
haha.

i love it!

however,
the question is: will Uniqolo call me?
oh man!!!
Dear God,
i pray that Susana, Jasmine and I will be called for this job together!
Amen!

ahhh!
have been going to the gym to shed off some calories
=)
i will be going to look better than ever!!!!
muahahaha!!!

good luck to you too, wani!
this holiday will be a life-changing camp.

the cursed 4E2 barbecue!!! muahahhaa!!

2009-11-13T23:34:00.000-08:00

hihihi!!!!
the exams are SERIOUSLY finally over!!!!
it's like just yesterday we came together to study for O'levels....
the next thing you know, it's over.
=))
i don't really know if i will miss all these......
hey hey!!!
pictures for the barbecue on the 13th November, Friday....
evil!!!!!!! wani and her craziness!

aiya, cannot catch susana!!!!

Junfa cutting his Kiwi.... now we really got nothing to eat.

the babe making melted chocolate.... that looks like curry, seriously! haha!

look at dear wani, so happy because she proved junfa she could cut Kiwi properly!

muahz!

don't fall down ah, susana!

my babe, susana!

Taylor Sim playing her guitar....=))) love the Hayley-hair!

kelly found the kittens, and i found the prettiest one. hehe.

ackk!!! don't do anything horrible, sheena!!!

i love her soooooooo much!

smile over here!!!

kitten!!!!

hey!!! we found the make-up kit!!!!

my eyes are too small, i'm wearing purple eyeshadow... PURPLE!!!

blurry... but i look good. hahaa

i'll miss her so damn much.....

jordan, you're seriously killing me.

WANI!!! LOOK OUT!!!

tsk tsk. last minute work never prevails. muahahhaa!!!

susana, pretty in mascara and stuff, chewing on some hot-dogs!

we're bored. this is all we have left to play with. hahahaa.

it was fun and all.

because this is most probably the last time to see some of them...

like Muna...

=(((

and to feel like the first day of life together.

this is going to be hard,

but i admit...

i do really will miss 4E2......

haha.

OH MAN!

2009-11-13T23:25:00.000-08:00

i cannot believe it!
i'm back.
hahaha!!!!
got hooked onto Sims 2 and since it was exam period,
i completely forgotten my blog's existence.
sigh.

many things happened during this period,
well, alot for me,
but there are things that should not be the same.
however,
what if it does?

that everything, despite distance, will still be the same?
it seriously hurts,
because all i wanted was you.
if only.

if only.....

PARAMORE!!!!!

2009-10-14T04:08:00.000-07:00

i scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my, safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in the pride
To see nothing in the light
But turn it off in all my spite, in all my spite
I'll turn it off

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
Then in the freefall I will realise
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

The tragedy it seems I'm ending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false illusions
Just to come out the hero

Well I can see behind the curtain
The wheels are cranking turning
It's all wrong the way we're working
Towards a goal, that's nonexistent, it's nonexistent
But we just keep believing

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
Then in the freefall I will realise
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in the pride
To see nothing in the light
But turn it off in all my spite, in all my spite
I'll turn it off

Just turn it off
Again
Again, again

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
Then in the freefall I will realise
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
Then in the freefall I will realise
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

the best song ever!!!
i just adore the lyrics...
=))

the mooncake festival outing....

2009-10-03T18:41:00.001-07:00

noooo way!!!!
when chorlin and i went to tiong bahru,
there was like europeans!!!!
and not just one or two,
there was like ten!!!!!
and i did not even know!!!
my heart was like hammering in my ribcage everytime they smile at me!!!
so scary....
but they are sooooo cute!!!!
picture time!
thomas

robert pattinson's "cousin".

michael.... jordan.... or both????

durians!!!!

thomas: ummm.... should i?????

love those people!!!

they're all pretty sweet.

and i even know the first german!!!!

he has like grey eyes,

with clean blend of grey and blonde hair!

perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!

he's so cute!

arghhhhh......

hahahaha!!!

my good brothers and sisters!

2009-10-03T18:31:00.000-07:00

smile, people!

hahahhaa!!!

after church,

we got a little bored...

so time for some pictures!!!!!

in the pictures: musical melvin, loud felicia, pretty chorlin, brainy sam and moi!!!!

oh,

and the grand finale....

i love my spiritual family!!!!

it's here!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-02T01:41:00.000-07:00

no waaaaay!!!!
the day i have been waiting!!!
paramore's latest CD,
a.k.a. brand new eyes,
is here!!!!!!

excited!!!!

thanks to sujun my information babe,
i knew this.
hahahhaa

Sterling Knight is still cute!!!!

oooh!
later,
off to mooncake celebrations with my cell group!!!
yay!!!

note: i have so many exclamation marks.... but who cares?!!!!!!!

my best friend is here...

2009-09-29T03:49:00.000-07:00

oh man.
my good good friend is here to intimidate me once more.
i cannot even focus!!!!
sighhhh.

and so,
i must focus on my studies more!!!
O'levels!!!
go go go~~~~

anddd,
God will do a miracle for me in every single way!
hahahaha!!!!

jasmine told me yesterday that christ is a very repetitive religion,
and many can get hooked on it.
but question is: how can you NOT get hooked???
hahaha!!!!

God is strangely irresistible.

anyways....
school tomorrow!!!!!

math, math, MATH!!!!

2009-09-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

nooooo!
i passed my math bordered...
it's good in a sort of weird, failing-math way,
but bad in so many another way!
my L1R-something is awfully high!!!!!!
no no no!!!!!

this will NOT be done!
sighhh.......

i must focus on the big one!
and God will help me in every single way!
He will, yes He will!
hahaha!!!!!!

Go Go GO!!!!

worned out

2009-09-24T00:28:00.000-07:00

whoa!!!!!!
prelims are finally over!!!!!
i have been waiting for too long!

so....
i have a feeling that tonight is going to be a good night!
hahhahahaha!

oh no!
my art was horrible!!!!
i think i wasted too much time daydreaming during the exam.
hahhahaa.

fun!

i wonder if there is a cheaper way to take art.......
i pray that there is is......
haha!!!

i am bored and tired.
and i just lost it.

i'm in love!

2009-09-20T03:54:00.000-07:00

i'm in love!
again!!!
and this time is the one i have always loved: God!
haha!

today,
i actually worshipped so fervently!
hahahaa!!!
:))

but worship until tired.
hahahaha.

oh no
i have no idea if i should go junior college....
or laselle.
it's tempting.
art is after the one i desire most.
but it's about the costs.
the price of the fee is not a laughing matter.....
but i so badly want to!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!

nevermind!
i shall let God decide my future.
:))
God will help in every single way!
haha!
yes he will lead the narrow way.......

nothing much to write about anyways.
however,
tomorrow=hari raya=study till your brains melt.
so sad.....
haha!

reading time~~~~

my heart

2009-09-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

when i hear paramore's my heart,
i feel so sad at the beginning.

stay with me...

then the chorus just gives nostalgia.
sadness and a clear mixture of happiness.
the blend is simply stunning.
it leaves you crying for something.....
or maybe someone?
:))

this heart, it beats, beats for only you...

haha!!!!
God is beautiful.

too much happiness!!!!

2009-09-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

ok, there is the good news and bad news.
for those who wants the good news,
please look after a few lines.

if not,
then start scrolling, people!
haha!

anyways,
good news:
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
okay,
not official.
but!
that's alright.
i'm relaxing already!
hehe.

bad news:
wani lost her phone!
D:
saddening.
she left it in the classroom.
geeeez!!!!
she should know better than this man!
tsk tsk!
anyways,
i pray she can find a cheap and way better phone....
like mine!!!
:D
except mine is cheaper but worse.
haha.
but love the things God blessed you with.
:))

oh wells,
time to go read!
hahaha!!
i am still a good girl ok????
hahaha!

brick by boring brick

2009-09-17T05:59:00.000-07:00

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies

With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
Or the wolves gonna blow it down

With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic

If it's not real
You can't see it with your eyes
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
Cause if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba...

brick by boring brick~!!!
what the hell??????
it's like so nice!
hahaha!!!

hating the devil!

2009-09-17T05:26:00.000-07:00

this whole week i feel so... evil?
i kept doing things against my rules and principles...
now i feel so guilty and angry with myself,
with the devil...
i hate this!!!

and exams were plain crash.

exams again!!!

2009-09-13T03:20:00.000-07:00

awww man!!!
the exams are back again!
here comes the exams blues...
hahaha.

man,
i feel so tired... and mostly disturbed.
i am not sure what,
but it's there,
more overpowering than God's presence...
no wait!

God's power is always powerful!
sigh....
what is BOTHERING me!!!!!!!!!!?????

to that certain someone: he doesn't like you, stop trying so hard.

sweet mother of milky way!!!

2009-09-11T03:59:00.000-07:00

today....
did not really do much,
go art,
get awfully dirty with medium,
come home exhausted,
then off to chinhee's house.
:D

got lost in the jungle of woodlands buildings.
pretty fun,
as we all planned to do some busking...
practise guitar and make money!
coooool!

haha.

aww well,
time for some cell group meeting!!!!!
to chin hee: GREAT HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whoaaaaaaaaaaaa

2009-09-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

some little pictures for art(relaxing) and for fun!

hahaha!!!

i'll miss gregory!

that sweet artist will be facing hell for two years in tekong!

:((

shucks!

2009-09-09T07:19:00.000-07:00

i fall... again!
D:
but good thing i did not get any blood.
or i will seriously hate myself!
haha!

however,
a sprained ankle is not really something to celebrate about.

geeeez!
if only people get hurt and can immediately heal.
cool riiight?

and worse part is i cannot believe i cried!!!!!
noooo!
hahaha!
that is so dumb.
i cannot believe it.....
but the sad part is my dearest mother said,
"no need to go doctor one laa."

ummm,
what the hell?

anyways,
very tired now.
better sleep.
nights!!!
:)

the usuals, as usual.....

2009-09-08T04:10:00.000-07:00

studying once more...
but tomorrow there will be a guitar lesson with greg!
:)

something to look forward, i guess.
haha!
i love the way greg just smile at his music,
enjoying every single sound he makes.
hahha!

i guess i am just jealous?
hahaha!

aw well....
i got television to watch!
and tomorrow must study!
pray for me!!!
haha!

art....

2009-09-07T01:38:00.000-07:00

ooooh~~~
i am so damn ready for prelims art...
(although i am only ready for art)
open up our hearts, Lord, and rain it down!
this will be so fun.

hahhaaha!!!
fun!

will be putting the painting picture if i am allowed to take.
hahahaha~
Lord is going to bless me!
:D

the unrequited love......

2009-09-05T02:25:00.000-07:00

am i suppose to go on being trampled on?
what is this?
i am not some rag on the ground for you to step on it when you like...

stop giving me crazy mixed-up emotions.
it's driving me up the damned wall.
i am trying my best to ignore you.

i guess it's not working well,
because i still think about you
once in a blue moon.
and this blue moon is pretty much everyday....
i have always prayed that a miracle can happen on me,
this stupid, blind and hopeless me.

stop it.
leave me alone.
you asked what will make me happy...
and i am replying you tonight,
"you staying away from me."

i don't want this to go on.............
anymore.

ATTENTION ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-05T02:21:00.000-07:00

since someone have complained that she is not added into the names of birtday wishes thing,
here it goes.....

KELLY KO KIAK KIAK!!!!!
THANK YOU FOR WISHING ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAY~~~~~~

i will be waiting....

2009-09-05T02:10:00.000-07:00

whoa!
finally i got into this damn blog!
haha!
sorry for the no-updates...
exams never spare a thought on my free times.
sad isn't it?

oh man!
i have finally slimmed down!
four kilograms of unnecessary weight is shed-ed!
yay!
hahahaha!
go go!
my goal: 55kg!
let us continue leaning onto God!
:D

anyways,
the purpose of my signing in: i am have trouble in art!
no no no!
i painted finish my canvas(finally much?),
however,
it is seriously still nameless!

man!
this is worse than getting a name for a baby!
babies do not have... meanings.
like they are not subjects.
you can call the baby mud for all you want!
haha.

BUT!
my point is....
i have no idea what to call it...
and dear wani is charging up her brain cells for me.
so sweet!
:)

however,
i shall pray on this......
nothing is going to break God's child!
haha!
oh hopefully janel can make it to church tomorrow tooooo.....

birthdays

2009-09-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

it's nothing much.
everything went a little differently actually.
:/

one, felicia bought a VERY feminine handbag for me.
two, i wanted chocolate cake, something i always love, but i got a huge damn fruit cake.
(i don't understnad... fruit and chocolate don't even sound alike!)
two, i eyed a bag and dear mother said she will NOT interfere with me buying it.
but she did.
and i am forbidden to buy the bag.
three, i cannot find any present i want.
there's a lot more.

but i received many greetings :)
chunhui, fedeline, ms yvonne(whoa), gina, wani, wenjing(she remembered!), sujun, benny(!!!!!), farah, felicia and tina(ahaha!!) and that's it....
thanks all!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahha!!!!

but despite all, i still love my birthday
:)
you have no idea how much!
hahaha!

oh, and happy birthday to dear manisha, jiaying and susana!

the passion

2009-09-01T07:29:00.000-07:00

i don't believe it.
i don't understand it.
but it's there.

it's dancing in gregory's eyes as he strums his guitar.
as gregory plays,
he lets his emotions run free in his music,
emotions he can't express is express in his music,
while his soul dancing to every strumming.

he's in love.

and i can feel his love, his wonders.
and i was doubtful.
i knew with all my heart,
that i won't find this depth of love from within me.
except, maybe, painting?
it's easy when it's your talent and love.
but not when it's others.

i envy greg.
in every way.
his passion,
his love,
his strength.
his.... everything.
sigh..........................

but i seriously learn something from him.
doing something without persistence will never work its way out.
:)
and i will do this guitar right!

i'm going to seriously make a noise for God!!!!!!!

KFC!!!

2009-08-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

oooh!
i went bishan KFC with dear wani!
it was fun!

we both talked,
understand more about each other....
it was nice to know that she treats me as a good friend like i do.
=)
hahahaha!!

the whole week......

2009-08-21T00:48:00.000-07:00

man!
lots of things happened in this long blasted week!

one,
i was thinking about him longer than usual....
i always wish that he was noticing me...
you know you know,
some wishful thinking.

two,
dear wani was always bugging me to get a prom date!
and yeah,
how many times should i reply," NO!"??
haha!!

three,
wani fought with her other good friend....
it's sad to know,
and although it is not my right to say anything,
but i think wani's friend is mostly at fault.
she has to know that the whole world is not evolving around herself.

wani has a life too,
and her feelings are equally as important to me as yours to his.
he can hate wani to hell for all i care,
maybe even me,
but wani will still be quite right.

four,
i learnt how to make roses!!!!
yay!!!
thanks to sweet old jasmine!
=)

and lastly,
the best thing in the whole week,
i have forgotten him!
man,
it feels like i have done 100 Ten Year Series,
and now,
i have finally completed the last page!
hahahahhaa!!!

trust me,
one Ten Year Series is enough.
hahahaha!!!

well,
will be having cell group meeting at clarke quay!
woo hoo!
hahahaha!!!

time to worship the Lord!

service!

2009-08-16T05:01:00.000-07:00

once again,
sunday is here,
service is on...
but this time,
it is S.O.T. graduation!

the day where those from bible school graduate and leave for the marketplace.
=)

but this year,
unlike every year when they get all(300 over) graduates to slowly get their certificates on stage,
they showed off the talents of the S.OT. people's talents.
drums, preachings, miracles, speeches!
wow!!!
way better!

the boy who rapped was just smoking!
hahaha!!!
he dyed his fringe and the bottom of his hair white!
like his hair was half consumed by fire...
white fire.
cool!
hahaha!!
i want mine partly purple.
hehe.

then,
after service,
chorlin, melvin, melvin's friend and i went bishan library!
mel's friend, jonathan, is funny!
at first, quiet,
then, weird but funny.
hahahaha!!
jeff, chorlin, melvin, jonathan and I were practically cracking up in the mrt to bishan!
hahahahha!!
fun!

aw well...
back to moshi monster!
i got hooked thanks to syazwani jami!
hahaha!!

see you alllll!!!

ALL ATTENTION!!!

2009-08-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

paramore latest video is finally here!!!!!!!!!!!
ignorance!!!
go their website and FIND IT now!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gogogogo!!!
hahahha!!!

the week is VERY tiring!!

2009-08-13T06:08:00.000-07:00

oh man!!
if you read that guitars are easy to play,
easy to learn,
or if other friends also say that,
it's like SO not true!!!
argh!!!
i am so bad in guitars!!!
=(((

oh man!!
i cannot focus on my studies!!!
man!!
i think it's because of art!!!
mmm...
my art is getting better...
haha!!

i painted well...
thanks to God!!!
He listened to my prayers and blessed me!!
thanks alot, God!!
=D

oh man!!
i suddenly feel like learning the drums!!!
after the day with felicia,
her enthusiasm for drums passed to me!!!
sian!!!

but it's so...
nice!!!
i love the feeling,
the rush of energy and authority!
the whole band must learn to the drums in order to play you know??
haha!

thanks, sujun, for sharing the joy with me!
haha!

aiya,
junfa sick!
tsk,
who ask him to always say wani weak!
his karma has arrived!
hehehe...
but any-oh-hows,
to junfa: TAKE CARE!!!!!!!

oh dear,
my birthday is coming soon!!
hahahaha!!
load the presents!
hahahaha!

oh no!
i'm not sure what to get for dear susana.....
=(
think think!!
no...
PRAY PRAY!!!
hahahha!

okay,
this whole post is rubbish!
so, i had better end here....

P.S. english oral next week!!
GO GO!!

national day becomes rock and roll!!!!!!

2009-08-10T02:38:00.000-07:00

okay,
this year, a.k.a. 2009, national day is the best!!!!

well,
it did not start out well,
mom was going out with her sisters and brothers
so chor lin and i were stuck at home...
then,
since there is no strikeforce for eugenia and felicia
(strikeforce is performing in national day),
we decided to go watch the fireworks at esplanade together!
sounds way better than sitting at home doing nothing....
way better...
and sam and melvin decided to tag along!

at first,
it was a study-till-8pm-outing...
but felicia called a jamming shop and we went off to jamming!!!!
here!
pictures speak a million words!

national day in church... then off to china town!

a back alley at chinaown... hmm... picture time!

eugenia!! the camera is here!!

oops! she found it!

haha!!! clueless!!

finally! no more laughter!

SEXY!

run like the wind, sammy!

hey, babe. coffee, tea or me?

haha!!! wa!! back view so nice, front view so ugly!!! jkjk!!!!!

cheeeeese!

jump shot!!! and smile too, okies???

happy national day, singapore!!!!

ummm... ok.......

like that?? no???

ok, i am COMPLETELY clueless!!!

ack!! dead people!!!

ok, boys, let's go let's go..... sorry ah! XD

wait!! JUST ONE MORE!!!

ok,

after photo session at the back alleys of chinatown....

the jamming begins!!!!!!!

up up and away!!!!

mmm.... clueless in the dim room...

yes!! got the lights on!!

waaa!! eugenia on the drums lehhhhh

oh no!!! how to play!!!!!!???

got it!!! coolness!!!

felicia!!! how to play!!!??

let the pro do the work!

bang it!!!

sam on the guitar??? hahahha!!

felicia!! you look so professional from here!!

truthfully, i was drooling on this picture! sorry, mel! hahaha!!

toilet break... the kitchen had all these captions! coolness!

we found another band set with a much wider place!!! picture time!!!

i want nobody nobody but... huh huh???? once again, i am clueless!!

o no!! hidden camera over there!! haha!!!

the whole thing was fun!!

plain plain fun!!!

melvin was a universe different from what he was in church...

not guai and shy,

just crazy and handsome!

hahahahaa!!!

sam was as usual,

loud and funny!

but this time,

LOUDER and funnier!!!

eugenia was shocking!

from a scary, emo girl,

became a sweet, not-shy babe!!!

sexy!!!!!

hahahhaa!!!

amazing!!!!

so many things can be discovered from fellowship!

hahahahhaa!!!

and so,

after jamming,

runaway to esplanade!!!

but we could not make it to the fireworks....

so,

we took the pledge in marina square!!!

my last but beautiful masterpiece for the day!!!!!

oops!!! some forgotten memories....

2009-08-08T19:13:00.000-07:00

this is taken for the magazine.
well,
looks like it turned out to be a damn huge success,
thanks to ol' jasmine hong nera!
hahaha!!!
the missing people here: wani and susana...

this photo is taken by dear samuel.
ok,
i have to admit,
samuel is not so bad,
90% weird,
but 10% sweet.
hahahha!!!

this is the birthday cake for my brother!!!
a.k.a. kor kor!
hahahahaha!!!
it's alot of little cakes brought together...
brilliant!

saw it at breadtalk,
where a lady made something like it...
and it's like puzzle pieces,
brought together to have a full picture!!!
amazing!

this is all...
church time!!!

national day equals to holiday!

2009-08-06T23:02:00.000-07:00

yay!!!!!!!!!
holiday!!!!!!
sleep, eat, study....
but cannot diet.
sian.

i tend to eat alot at home!
hahahahha!!!!
hmmm....

oh no!
pet society cannot open!!!
looks like i got nothing to do for awhile.
=/

and youtube cannot open!
ack!!!!
die die die!!!
hahahaha!!!

maybe i should change my blogskin...
again!
=D

i cannot forget....

2009-08-06T04:03:00.000-07:00

i don't think i can forget,
to love.
to hate.
to miss.

this is the best thing that had ever happened to me,
and i don't want this to end.
but it had to.

i cannot accept that the change is good.
i cannot.
never want to.

i hate myself for this.

i want to treat you like another stranger,
but i do not dare to try,
just contemplate.

help.

the one and only!!

2009-08-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

the class photo is FINALLY taken!!

ahhh!

hahahaha!!!

but the saddest thing is that my best friend,

aka syazwani,

is the only person that never come.

my sad heart is broken!

piang piang!

hahahahaa!!!

a smile on my sad face

2009-08-05T05:08:00.000-07:00

wow.
i really have to thank God for this!

today,
i actually drew finish the whole canvas,
note: it is a little bigger than a huge window pane.
and yes,
it took me one and half hour,
adding the screaming and tears when i went out of shape.

and dear ms yvonne said i must redo again...
and not only that,
redo it on a very small canvas.
well,
i want mine paranoma shape(rectangle) but she wanted it square!!!!
i was frustrated,
seriously not knowing what to do!

i prayed for help,
and clearly,
it was not working!

just then,
junfa came,
his presence so silent,
i did not notice him.
and when i did,
i told him my frustration and sadness,
(it's very long, ok?),
and he listened!

okay,
i don't know if he actually did,
but he sat there to.
and that was nice.
=)

and he told me,"do it."
and yeah, i did.
i was motivated, suddenly.
over nothing.

and then,
i found out.
God listened to my prayer and helped me get help!
yes!!!
hahahahhaa!!!!

and he made dear old GOH JUNFA to help poor old me!
hahaha!!!

sick and sick and SICK.

2009-08-02T21:36:00.000-07:00

aw man!!!
fever!
hahaha.
it's kind of good too though,
i get to catch up on my TVs and computer!
hahahha!!!

oh man,
IGNORANCE by paramore is soooo nice!
ha cha cha!!!
hahahaha!!!
ignorance is your new best friend!

ow,
my whole body is so tired.
and i feel so darn giddy....
=(
maybe i will take a little nap soon...
=P

hope won't grow fat again.
hahhaha.

oh man!
i think i am hooked on tarzan...
hahahha.
he is so cute!
hahahahha!!!
dude,
eight packs lehh!!!!
hahahahhaa!!!
*drool*

hahaha!!!
back to pet society!
cheerio!

sick!!!

2009-08-01T23:49:00.000-07:00

oh no oh no!!!
i think i am going to be sick...
=(
sad sad.
haha.

i'm going gaga!!
I WANT TO GO SERVICE!!!
bored, exhausted, sad, angry.
everything!!!!

it's like i forgot my charger and died forgotten....
i must wait!!!
next sunday!
you can do it, chormay.......

you can.......

ignorance via. paramore!

2009-08-01T05:59:00.000-07:00

if i'm a bad person,
you don't like me
i guess i'll go, make my own way
its a circle
a mean cycle
i can't excite you anymore
where's your gavel? your jury?
what's my offense this time?
you're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
well sentence me to another life

don't wanna hear your sad songs
i don't wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
the friends who stuck together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well it's nice to meet you sir
i guess i'll go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

this is the best thing that could've happened
any longer and i wouldn't have made it
it's not a war no, its not a rapture
i'm just a person but you can't take it
the same tricks that once fooled me
they won't get you anywhere
i'm not the same kid from your memory
now i can fend for myself

don't wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
we used to stick together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you can't accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well it's nice to meet you sir
i guess i'll go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

you treat me just like another stranger
well it's nice to meet you sir
i guess i'll go
i best be on my way out

the latest and amazing song by PARAMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a new day...

2009-08-01T05:42:00.000-07:00

festival of praise....
wow!!!!!!!!!
i did not take any pictures...
too dark.
hahaha!

ok,
there is something to confess.
i thought bob fitts, the worshipper, was 60 over years old.
but not really laa.
hahahha.

his songs are boring and oldie,
but his voice is.... wow!
cool.
hahaha.

true worshippers were not as nice as the first time they came to CHC,
but they still rock the whole stadium down!!!
hahahahha!!!!
chorlin's new friends are nice!!!
hui ling especially.
hahahhaa...

although they talk very soft.
hahaha....

chin hee came too.
hahaha,
he got a haircut.
and it looks as though he went through a tornado.
hahaha.
messy much.

mom got angry because we reached home at 12am.
but it is seriously not our fault.
the crowd gathered at the bus stop before, at and after the stadium!
oh man!!!!!!!!
haha....

but she wants us to go for sunday service only....
=((((
i just love to hate her for this.

i miss God already..........

a miracle indeed

2009-07-26T06:20:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh.
i knew my heart was breaking.
everything that was used to contain it fell with it.
but something amazing happened.
almost too good to be true!

i was contemplating not going church.
but i did not make up the tummy ache to miss bible study,
because it's true!
however,
something within me prompted me to take a train back home.
in every single stop,
the prompting got more desperate,
more intimidating.

i was stuck.
i knew it.
i was going to turn back and go home.
sooner or later.

but felicia appeared out of nowhere,
and that silent voice immediately vanished.
like it was afraid of felicia!

i was still doubting,
the throbbing in my heart was hurting.
but when i stepped into church,
i relaxed.
my tensed shoulders slummed with ease.
and during praise and worship,
i just kept tearing my pain away.
every tear was like a skin,
peeled awya and let me float away into the gust of wind.

and.
i was free.
=)
jealousy was no longer my issue.
because i know i don't need to be with God here!
hahahaha!!!!!

oh,
and i bought a new little monster!!!
my collection is now four!!!!

pretty soon...

2009-07-24T00:28:00.000-07:00

oh great.
this new art teacher apparently told me that most of my boards,
practically all,
are not linked at all....
my heart literally broke.

and at that instant,
i almost gave up trying.
trying to win.
trying be better than this.
this.

i just want to....
to lose all the way.
but i can't.
and i won't.
but however much i pray for change,
i still feel the same.
ugly.

wani says it is not it,
that what i interpreted about the teacher was wrong.
then how come i have this throbbing feeling in my heart,
that what i interpreted was right........

then i am right after all.
i am ugly.

she is not me.
she's smart, quick, good at almost everything...
but i am not.
i'm fat.
i'm dumb.
i'm everything a girl don't want to be.
i'm it.

i'm such a failure......

when life takes you down...

2009-07-19T03:46:00.000-07:00

wow!!!
today's church was amazing!!!
i prayed and prayed...
the anoiting was simply dumbfounding....
i think i would have fall under the spirit.......
if i was not so self-conscious of myself!!!
haha........

so fully energised now!!!!!!
but i was reluctant to leave the presence....
fellowship was ok-ok laaa.
i went to eat with my family instead of the cg,
so sat there and drool at the others' food......
hahaha!!!

after dinner,
a walk around the jurong centre,
it is like seriously big.....
my dear sister told me that a certain someone likes her,
hinting that i should say it out,
be jealous of her.......

she kept saying,
aiya, he looked jealous...
what do you think he's jealous of?
ewww....
and she was so smug about that....
>.<

haahaa...
ok,
cheerio!!!

church is cool,
God is cooler!!!!

why???

2009-07-17T22:57:00.000-07:00

why?
why did she have to do this to me?

to make me pin on high hopes,
thinking that that day will be the best day of our secondary school....
but why on earth did she just throw me away,
living me with so many unanswered questions and pain...?

i feel unappreciated,
sad,
angry,
and horribly betrayed.

yes,
betrayed.

that is what i feel right now.

i want to know what is going on.
but she will give me answers right?
right?
i accept the answer," my phone died for the whole day and weekend." too you know?
i don't mind,

just give me an excuse to ease this anxiety within me...........

simply stunning

2009-07-17T22:52:00.000-07:00

the best picture a girl like me world ever own....
=D

outing and laselle!!!!

2009-07-17T21:58:00.000-07:00

the three musketeers!

looks up people!!!

a shop on 'main street'

mmm... my hair ok or not... aiya!!! got camera~~~ ack!!! haha!!

mmm... yummm

beautiful!!

hot boys alert!!

aiya!!! look here lehh!!!

ahhh! spiders!!!

beautiful lighting=beautiful photo!

aiya!! why you move, xue en!!!

yay!!!! they knew what it means by move after the second flash of my camera!

candid!!!

this is not blur, it's style!

ew. why chin hee look so weird!

open wide!! got your fave chilli alot alot ahh!

haha!!!!

mummy!! i at bar lehh!

fooooood!

aiya... too dark... but i love the silhouette of sam!!!

laselle!!!

smile for the camera~mmm... what to eat ah??

cheese!!!!

haha!!!

today was so damn fun!!!

first,

we got lots of problem as muna wanted to back out,

wani did not want to come to school or reply us at all,

and i really damn hate her for that.......

the whole situation was falling apart......

and so,

the threeios finally went to cityhall!

gina, susana and me!!!!

it turned out to be so fun!!!

susana began smiling again,

my heart began opening and forgetting the problems,

and gina's tiny smile became a huge grin!!!

hahahha!!!!

susana and i walked around after gina left...

this is the first girl friend i have to spend 50 bucks within five hours!!!!

hahhaha~~~

laselle trip turned out from okay to brilliant!

i got to understand sean alittle more than before!!

and mick is not a bad guy...

and i finally found out grayson's surname is chia!!

or mac...??

haha!

and sam is an amazing guy with an amazing smile!

hahaha!!!

i hope this cell group will not fall apart,

because i pray with all my heart,

we will grow together like brothers and sisters!

and with xue en as our physical daddy!!!

and with God as our spiritual daddy!!!!!!!!

hahahaha!!!

and so,
who the hell says a birthday must have the birthday girl around?

hahahha!!!

this is a sad thing, by the way.

2009-07-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

number one on the menu,
i lost track of dates.
hahaha.
i thought today was 9th of july when i did this australia exam thing and found out that today is the 13th of july.
hahaha!!!

and number TWO,
the australia exam thing is SO boring!!!
for your info,
i lost four important periods of class time!!!
however,
i got a good reason for forgetting homeworks.
hehe.

today,
i was not even scolded by ms tay for entering class late!!!

f.y.i. it is also not my fault we dragged our so-called recess time,
both sujun and peiting stomach ache...
one after another!!!
i sat in the toilet,
inhaling 'poisonous' gas for a solid twenty minutes!!
hahahaha!!!
boo hoo!
hahaha!!

the rest of the day was... ummm... boring?
hahaha!!!
ooooh!!
cannot wait!!
friday!!!
going out and going cg outing!
yay!!

however,
still must study!!!!!
argh!!

good news by the way,
my maths improving alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha!!!
go go go!!

sad sad story...

2009-07-12T05:17:00.000-07:00

“Can you hear the sound?”

“It’s loud, and deafening even, this resonance.
Can you hear it?
I’m sure you can, because your heart, like mine, is hollow.

Perhaps that what it means by being alone – that emptiness, even when you’re with many people.
It is the bottles with the most hollow that resonates the loudest, and produce the lowest, most melancholic sounds.

That, I feel travelling with similar frequencies from mine.”

“It’s called loneliness, isn’t it?”

i like it!!!
extracted from sae's blog---HOLLOW.

subject: fun! (haha!!)

2009-07-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

okay,
let's review...
i went to church earlier hoping to see himmmm...
but never comeeee...
so nevermind lorr.
hahahaha.

after bible study,
(alone with xue en),
i went with bob, mick, jeff, melvin the total guitarist, jovan and that's it.
we went book seats.

i don't know why,
but being with them,
i just feel good.
happy.
comfortable.
like part of them.
they wait for me,
and i am not afraid if they will disappear on me.
so, yeah.
that's good.

hahaha!!
=)
maybe it's because melvin and jeffrey are there.
so i get comfortable around them.
hahaha.
but during service,
dear jeffrey talked TOO much!!!!
hahahhaa!!!

irritating you know, mister!!??
hahaha!!!
i got to know sam's sister, a.k.a. my future sister-in-law.
hahahaha~~
(fineee..)

oh and not to mention,
xueen's new friend, jo, damn cute laa.
hahaha..
hot hot hot hot hot hot.

but he's too old for me.
=(
hahaha!!!
(i so flirt right?)

so,
everything went smooth...
i got to know niji a.k.a. sam's sister alot more,
while my sister is with you-know.
=P

whoa!!
sam and his sister has spilt personalities!!
seriously!!!
niji: smart, loud, tidy, clean and jovious!
sam: not smart(?), baritone and quiet, NOT clean and serious(pretty!)
hahahaha!!

finally,
sis and i reached amk,
bought ice cream and talked.
fun!!!
hahahaha!!!

the grand picture!!!

2009-07-11T00:48:00.000-07:00

haha!!!
felicia and eugenia's dresses are beautiful!!!!
matching!
the missing person who was present on that day was grayson.
M.I.A. for some reasons...
hahaaha!
however,
he appeared in a nick of time for the real shoot!!
what a shame!
hahahaha!!!
CG meeting yesterday was ama-a-zing!!
hahahaha!!
fun!
however,
i can see that sammikins and sister is (ahem) developing something?
hahahahha!!!!
sweeeet!!!
they always will laugh at each other's jokes,
and sit together,
walk together,
eat together...
do everything together laa, basically!
hahahahaha!!!
=P
something something!!!
hahahaha!!!
you can actually feel like gooseberry around them!
hahaaha...
oh noo!!!
i am so sad...
my mother don't want to go orchard today,
so i cannot see felicia perform strikeforce!!!
angry angry!!!!
i so badly want to see man!!!
hahahaha!!
=(
aw well...
will be changing skin again!!!
hahahhaa!!!
same as xiu xiu~!
scared she will jealous of my skin.
hahahaha!!!

the pain of departing...

2009-07-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

thanks to my walking information counter a.k.a. sujun,
i suddenly thought of leaving school...
you know....

the exact last day of school...

it's good that i will not see teachers' faces or even CCAs again...
but it will be so heartbreaking,
when i enter an alien classroom to not hear jordan's boomings,
jiaying's crafty laughter,
wani's lame but adorable jokes,
gina's little silent whispering thoughts,
susana's craziness,
muna's put-bra-ing schemes,
jasmine's horniness,
kelly's weird tongues,
and finally, sujun's smiles and paramore-ness..........

it will be so quiet...
so painful to know that i will only have them in my memories only...
i don't want this to end.
these memories,
these friendships.
they're like diamonds that i have no choice but to throw them into the sea,
one by one......

in the word friendship, there will always be the word," end".
and it hurts.
it seriously hurts.

but i know God will be faithful to bring us back together.
God will be handsomely kind to bring wani, mun, jas, gin, suzie and i together again....
=)

and for that,
i praise Him with all my aching heart....

yay!!!!
hahahahaha!!!

post it more.....

2009-07-10T01:40:00.000-07:00

ooookay,
i have finally changed the blogskin!!
comment on it pleeeease!!!
the picture i ownself find de!
hahahhaa!!!
the photographer who took that is plain genius!!
note: i did not steal anyone's work......

looking for a miracle...

2009-07-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

i wonder if i can find a new blogskin...
OK!
"mission skinner" is on!!

songs: check!
facebook game on: check!
my windows live messenger on busy mode: check!!!
ok!!!

wish me luck!
i am going in to find a new blogskin!!!
hahahhaa!!!

i wonder what i want....
mmm...
surely something purple!
hahahhahaa!!!!

that's what you get...

2009-07-09T06:36:00.000-07:00

okay,
that is what you get when you let your heart win.
literally!

this few days i just do not feel like socialising,
even when someone warms up to me...
haha.

i AM weird, aren't i?
even wani, i always get high with her around, i just cannot.
not this week i hope...

and so,
i have not made ANY friends this week,
thanks to my heart.
hahhaha....

and to muna pun: I UPDATED!
and to kelly tan piak piak: i did not put too much space now ok??
hahahaha.....

i am damn exhausted......

why??

2009-07-08T07:56:00.000-07:00

why?

why does life have to take one onboard its ship and then throw him out of it?

why does life have to be so darned sadistic?

after i watched Michael Jackson's tribute,
i found out that i am not the only one actually questioning life...

no one gets left behind or forgotten...

than why are so many thrown away or screaming for help in the middle of an endless ocean...

however,
i know that life goes on and on...
and whatever that comes will go...
quietly...

when shakespeares died,
his discription of his death was plain and simple yet complicated...
"he died."
and no more.

just like Jackson,
i have stepped into this world empty-handed and scared of the unknown future,
and will leave this world once more empty-handed and afraid...

there is no happy ending in life,
as there is no ending at all...

but god is sweet and kind,
he will led the way with his mighty light...
let us be the head and not the tail!
hahahaha!!!!

to michael jackson (if he can read this):
don't lose faith in the one true love...
for he never lose faith in you!
good luck and whatever happens,
pick yourself and smile...

what the hell much?

2009-07-07T06:54:00.000-07:00

i was like so damn slackish in school!!!
argh!!!

and i actually spent on wani's present like around 20 bucks!!??
broke broke...
=(
and even bought a new pencil box out of cravings....

and
i think this is the most expensive present i ever bought for someone.
hahahhahaa!!

but seriously,
wani wani is my good good GOOD friend, a.k.a. great friend,
so yeah,
i think(?) it is worth it.......

but sometimes when i call someone my best friend,
i am always worried if she thinks otherwise,
that she secretly hates me.....
that she secretly want to betray me when i am off my guard...

oh man...

i am so insecure.....

in my whole life i only called two people my best friends,
and the rest are all good or great friends...

maybe this is why i never even stead before!!!
hahahahhaa!!!

i just want to give my friends space....

oooh!!!
i bought a new little monster!!!
thanks to shermin for telling me where to buy it,
and wani for lending me money and accompanying me to buy it!!
=D

i called it little obscene nose!
hahahha!!!
you all will know why sooooon.......
=P

got to go, people!!!
it's praying time!
=)

cell group meeting....

2009-07-04T01:49:00.000-07:00

okay,
it was fun.
hahahahaha!!!

i actually sat beside chin Hee and jeffrey,
when grayson arrived and surprisely sat beside me.
hahahaha.

i never noticed before,
but grayson's stare is hard, almost cold.
like looking into the eyes of a executer.
not afraid to look at people in the eye and read their emotions,
while no one in this world can.
hahaha...

no wonder he got the title fighter so quickly.
hahahaha.

then,
fellowship came and we all sat together and play guitars.
MELVIN LIKE ROCKS ON GUITARS!!!
he learnt on you-tube within 5 months or so.....
hahhaa!!

except those shy shy ones,
chin Hee and Jeffrey.
and sometimes grayson.

and so......
in conclusion: FUN.
hahahhahaa!!!!

got to go, people!!!!!

decoy...

2009-07-03T08:56:00.000-07:00

i feel that this song decoy by paramore is kind of nice...
but you all have to go listen to it yourself...
hahhahahaa!!!

Close your eyes and make believe
this is where you wanna be
forgetting all the memories
try to forget love
cause love's forgotten me.

Well hey,hey baby it's never too late
pretty soon you won't remember a thing
and i'll be distant as stars reminiscing
your hearts been wasted on me.

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

You've never been so used
as I'm using you
abusing you, my little decoy
don't look so blue
you should have seen right through
i'm using you, my little decoy.

Living life inside a dream
time is changing everything
forgetting all the memories
and i'm forced into you just cause your into me.

Well hey, hey baby
its never too late
when i'm gone you won't remember a thing
but i can't stay and you know i won't wait
i was gone from the very first day.

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

You've never been so used as I'm using you
abusing you, my little decoy
don't look so blue
you should have seen right through
i'm using you, my little decoy.
oh oh

I'm not sorry at all
(not sorry at all,not sorry)no
i won't be sorry at all(not sorry at all,not sorry)no
i'd do it over again.

Don't look so blue, my little decoy
you should have seen right through, my little decoy
you've never been so used, my little decoy
As I'm using you, my little decoy.

DECOY rocks!!!
BORN FOR THIS rocks harder!!!!!!!

putting my leg into my mouth

2009-07-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

i am so odd today,
as if i keep saying the wrong thing.

and every time i say them,
i immediately regret it...
and the guilt just stays with me like a headache.

i don't know,
but i just keep doing it.
it is like rubbing salt to your wounds when you already know it will hurt.

i am so so so sorry!!!
(to: don't know, it is just countless...)
hhahaha...
=/

oooh!!
wani got a stray kitten!
she seemed to want to keep it...
because she bought all the bowls and toys for it.
hhahahaha!!!

i wonder if i can make such a commitment...
taking after something that is not mine at all...

however, i know it is cute...
although i have not met it yet...
hahhahaha!!!

i am wierd right?
=P

that is after all my speciality!!!
hahahhaa!!!

aw well,
going to pray now!!!!!

inspired....

2009-06-30T06:22:00.000-07:00

today,
after school,
i stayed back to see muna actually in THICK make-up.

the foundations are exhausting,
but the results are pretty nice.
hahahha!!

jasmine put so many darn things on muna's face,
i lost count!!!
(ok, it's exaggerating, but it's still alot...)

the make-up is like from a japanese thing,
that umm, dark-skinned girls wear that kind of make-up.
(which is just riht for dear muna! hahaha!!!)
and most of the make-up is, well, white.
hahhahahaha.

it's overall nice laa,
but scary on photos.
=P

i am nuts

2009-06-29T06:16:00.001-07:00

i am getting crazy over paramore's song, "born for this"!!!
it is like an amazing song!!!
hahahha!!!
but the lyrics are hard to deciper...
and sooooooo....

Oh no I just keep on falling
(Back to the same old…)
Where’s hope when misery comes crawling?
(oh my way-ay)
With your faith you’ll trigger a landslide
(victory)
To kill off this common sense of mine

It takes acquired minds to taste,
to taste, to taste this wine
You can’t down it with your eyes
So we don’t need the headlines
We don’t need the headlines
We just want…

(We want the airways back, we want the airways back)
Everybody sing like it’s the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?
Everybody live like it’s the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?

Right now you’re the only reason
(I’m not letting go, oh…)
and im out if everyone’s worth pleasing
(wa ah)You’ll trigger a landslide
(Victory)
to kill off their finite state of mind

It takes acquired minds to taste,
to taste, to taste this wine
You can’t down it with your eyes
So we don’t need the headlines
No, we don’t want your headlines
We just want…

(We want the airways back, we want the airways)
Everybody sing like it’s the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?
Everybody live like it’s the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?
Everybody sing like it’s the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure?

Alright, so you think you’re ready?
Ok, then you say this with me Go!
We were born for this
(We were born for this)

Alright, so you think you’re ready?
OK, then you say this with me Go!
We were born for this
(We were born for this)
We were born for this
(We were born for this)

We were born for
We were born for

Everybody sing like it’s the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure?
Everybody live like it’s the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure now?
Everybody sing like it’s the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure?
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure?

We were born for this
We were born for this
We were born for this!!!!!

wooohoooo!!!
paramore is the best!!
hhahaha

EXHAUSTED!

2009-06-28T05:46:00.001-07:00

warning: this girl is very very tired now!!!

argh!!!
tomorrow, school officially starts!!!!
siansiansiansiansian!!!
hahhahaha!!!!

school is not that bad larh...
it is just the waking up part.
and the homework part.
and the tests part...

okay,
basically the whole situation is plain bad!!
hahhahahahha!!!!

oh man!!!!
i am like hyperventilating!!!!
thanks to the sim lim square a.k.a. sujun,
I FINALLY GOT ''BORN FOR THIS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
hahhahahaha!!!

excited excited!!!

hahhaha!!!!

but!!
O'LEVELS FIRST!!!!!
go go go!!!

and then,
freedom!
hahhahahaha!!

the word itself is so soothing!!
hahaha.......

aw well,
toodles!!!

F.Y.I.: listening to BORN FOR THIS.

he is so cute!!!

2009-06-27T05:59:00.000-07:00

Paramore's Joshua Neil Farro is so so so so cute!!!

hahaha!!!

but someone so cute 101% got girlfriend de laaa.

although i am cuter.

hahahhaa!!!

jkjk....

i think.

hahaha!!

oooh!!!

did i mention they are coming out their third album!!!

thanks to SIM SU JUN and her updated knowledge,

i found out the their new album is called " brand new eyes."

the name is somewhat wierd,

but i am sure it will be nice!!

hahahaha!!!

except the name has no link to the cover of the disc.

the picture is not out for grabs yet,

BUT i will be buying the disc!!

oooooh!!!

excited!

hahahahhaa!!!!!!!!

paramore, purple and taylor swift rocks!!!

(note: purple is a colour)

hahhahaha!!!

okay,

i shall leave the computer in the hands of my horrible sister,

who finds so bloody much time to find my facebook password,

and do not want to open one herself.

wierd, isn't she?

hahhaha!!!

aw wells...

toodles till tomorrow!!!

the end of another wonderful holiday....

2009-06-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

oh, so sian.
the holidays are going to be OVER.
time to wake up damn early.
time to hear kelly talking and talking without understanding her.
time to see that pimpled-face jordan yeo.
time to do piles and piles of homework without knowing why.

but the good side is...
time to see wani, muna, jasmine, susuna and Gina!!!
hahahaha!!!

there is always a good side to bad news!
=P

and yet,
i just settled down with my holiday schedule!!
hahahhaa!!!

oh man!!
the O'levels are reaching....
i just pray that i can pass!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahha!!!

well,
i have someone sleeping over last night.
she's cute yar.
hahahaha!!

although i don't really know her...
i wonder why is she staying over?
i wonder who she is anyways.......

what???
she's my sister's friend,
not mine!!!
hahahhaa!!

but she's nice.
hahha!!!

aw well...
back to nothing to do..........

i am over here!!

2009-06-20T00:40:00.001-07:00

oh man!!!
long time no here!!
hahahaha!!!

oh man,
my english broken sia.
i change now,
wait wait ah...

okay,
i am all better.
hahahaha!
sorry for the no-updates for ages,
i was playing facebook games and reading books from the sale things.
hahaha!!!

busy busy!!!

holidays are here!
aaaand yeah,
holidays are going too.
sigh.....

ooooh yeah!!!
father's day is tomorrow! (i think)

however,
church never fails to be first!
hahahhaa!!!

after all,
i never celebrate father's day........

aw well,
the rest of the holidays will be immerged with homeworks and revision!

ahhhh!!
i so can't wait for this o'levels to end!!!
(however A'levels will follow up...!!!)

toodles for now!!!!!!!!

the camp

2009-06-12T02:38:00.000-07:00

(warning: long post, again)

wow.
of all the camps i have went.
from NPCC to church camps,
among all of them,
including yucky NPCC camps,
this is the WORST camp i have went.

maybe i was not anointed enough,
or enthusiatic enough,
but i still have to say it is boring, useless(?) and more.

why this youth camp is so damn dumb?
1) only FOUR people turned up in our cell.
(i don't blame the rest, but seriously, four???)

2) my sister dear got a new friend so she kept leaving me out.
even felicia asked me why i did not want to go with her.
it is so darn obvious isn't it?

3) the games are... ummm... boring.
(it is the nicest word i can find)

4) the fright night should not be blindfolding.
that makes the whole darn thing plain and, well, fake.

5) the people there are so... unfriendly?
felicia's group are so much nicer!!!
looks like the saying is true:
the grass on the opposite fields always look greener.

6) they basically put us in the old school just so they can use the field to
make history.
it feels a little like they are using us to break world record.
and it's like every other camps in NPCC,
the sole reason for the camp is evolved around the camp fire.
i have to say,
the camp fire is nicer than average campfires.

7) but what i love most about church camps is that they do not have CHEERS.
and this camp they have ALOT.

8) the games are all in the trackfield.
and for the whole 3 days,
the weather is blazing hot.

the whole camp is so damn boring.
seriously.
you can call me crazy, evil, anti-social, whatever:
the camp will forever and always hold this fact: it is b-o-r-i-n-g.

however,
what i am wondering is:
how come no one knows about paramore...

oooh!!!
the 9th reason for this camp to be boring is:
they do not have paramore!
sad.
hahaahahaha!

well,
like every camps,
i will detail my stay in paya lebar methodist girls'.

day one:
i came in late.
art class.
the camp started off bad,
coz i missed ice-breaker.

the rest of the day was bleak.

fright night was awfully boring.
they blindfolded us,
like every other boring camps.
the reason why bukit timah camp for sec 3s was nice is because the nightwalk did not include blind-folding.

day2:
i was under the damned sun for 2 whole hours.
TWO.
two cans of coke and 3 bottles of water was not enough to quench my thirst.

and someone is so selfish.
he kept taking and not giving.
even water he did not want to share.
and he keeps drinking mine.
he says that girls did not like to share water so he did not give me his,
so why the hell did he keep taking mine?
i queued so damn long for fruit punch,
and still sweet enough to fill 1/2 of my bottle so others can drink,
and he took HALF of that amount i had after drinking a full cup of punch.
arse-hole much?

the campfire was nice though.
i have to say.
strikeforce is amazing.
but it causes alot of bruises on felicia's kneecaps.
they had to lug onto a 5(?)kg drum and jump.
ouch.
chor lin, felicia and i talked till 1.30am.

day 3:
which is today.
i left at 7am.
when i left,
i was happy.
seriously happy.
like leaving jail cell.
and that feeling is only reserved for NPCC camps.

but underneath all the happiness,
i was a little down.
i did not really talk to my group members.
although i can see they do not really want to talk to me.
sad isn't it?

but that's all.
and yay!!
i'm alive!
alive, in you i am so alive!
hahahahhahaha!!!
oooh!!
dinner time!!!!!!!
hahaha!

lookie here....

2009-06-09T01:04:00.000-07:00

ooooh!!
that's me!!!
i still don't know how that FELICIA even took it.
with me smiling into the camera!!!!!!!!!
oooh!
do i look like mona lisa?
hahahaha!!!
long black hair with the mysterious(hahaa!!!) smile??
hahahhaha!!!

aiya,
so sad.
my mother and father go malaysia.
and they totally left me alone in Singapore with my idiotic sister.
geeeeeeeeez.
so damn sad.

oh man!!!!
tomorrow is the day!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yay!!!!
i got xinyi and kelly to go leh!!!
so damn happy!

but still worried....
what if i cannot fit in???
i am always the unfitted puzzle.
i don't want to be one over there too...........
sigh.........

life ain't gonna wait for you

2009-06-08T06:55:00.000-07:00

okay,
i kept forgetting to put all this on,
although it is one of the most times in my life!
hahahhaa!!!
enjoy the rare pictures!!!
(courtesy of Felicia Lee no Xue Er) smiles!! i took this so not inside...=(

this kid is unknown but damn cute!

the obscene picture of Xue en. Hehehe... he will be regretting him being my CGL...!

SMILE!!! although leg hurts.

chinhee took this i think... he was trembling lorr!!

CHEEEEEESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE OBSCENE PIC OF ME!! arrrgh!!

the day was fun!!!
we skated,
fall(two times-one on my butt, the second flat on the face)
ate by the ocean
and play TRUE OR DARE!!!
sadly,
no one wants dare,
so i decided to take it and sing shebang shebang by the park.
hahahhaha!!!!!!!!!
pai seh!!!!
then,
we went home and talk talk talk!!!!!!
so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh and the finale!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hold onto your seatbelts!!

hahahahahhahahahhhahahhahaha!!!!!!!!!

oh how darn sad

2009-06-08T05:25:00.000-07:00

aw man.
the pet society CRASHED!!!
it's like under maintenance.

and so,
i have to wait until friday to play it.

oooh yeah!!!
wednesday is the camp!!!

however,
thanks to the classes in poly and ITE,
only a few of us is going.
=(

well,
the four-ios will be there.
hahaha!

let's see,
felicia, chinhee, chor lin and me.
and i cannot think of anyone else who is going.

oh how sad,
chinhee will be going the toilets and sleeping alone.
hahahaa!!

aiya.
scared sia.
i keep asking myself if i can fit in or not.......
=/

oh man oh man oh man!!!!

2009-06-07T05:41:00.000-07:00

he looks so damn hot.
damn damn damn hot!!!!!
his sharp features with this piercing eyes and slender body.
oh man.

he looks like a sex god.(learnt this from twilight!)
but totally.

aw well,
i will still never get a chance.
he's like a pierce of diamond while i am plastic.
sad isn't it?
hahaha!!!

anyways.
went off to causeway point for a "window" shopping.
however,
i ended up buying like 3 PANTS, 2 SHIRTS!!
oh man.
hahahaha!!!

but i felt totally blessed by God,
'cause despite how much we've spent,
and how long dad is taking off for the breaks,
we are still financially coping and all.
haha!!

God has blessed MY broken road!
=P

GUESS WHAT???
i bought my first eyeliner!!
hahahaha!!!

sounds seriously crazy right?
but it is my FIRST make-up stuff.
i am not much of a make-up freak,
and not allowed to be one.
hahahaha!!!

so happy yar?
=P

God is really blessing me and my family!
yay God!

haha!

aw well,
tomorrow is ART!
must work harder for the O'levels!!!!

i have got a very bad temper don't i?

2009-06-03T07:03:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why i am so heated up nowadays.
like a simple stare could get me comtemplating picking up a knife.
aargh!
help help!!
i don't want to be like that again!

a beauty for love

2009-06-03T01:02:00.000-07:00

man!!!
i was researching halfway for roses when i spotted this picture!!
what a piece of art!!
so simple yet classical and beautiful.
oh man.
i don't care!!
one day i am going to drag my whole family or friends to paris!!!!
I DON'T CARE!!
hahahaha!!!
don't be scared if i pulled you there with me!
=D
hahahhaha!!
aw well.
carry on my research!!
GO GO GO!!

i cannot cannot CANNOT believe

2009-06-01T05:58:00.000-07:00

i cannot believe this.
truly!!
but i have to, right?
and so...

here goes...

sigh...

NEW MOON TRAILER IS OFFICIALLY ON!!!
yeowwwww~~~
it's on it's on it's on it's on!!
hahahahaa!!

however,
the jacob turning to a wolf is a little odd.
but they said the director is from golden compass...
hmmm...
he is good at 3D animals.

but the transforming part is seriously odd.
hahahaha!!!

they should do it like beast boy in teen titans,
where they do not show the transforming part.
hahahahaa!!!!

but it will be nice.
ooooh!!
i am hyperventilating!!
seriously!!!!!

oooh!!
Jasmine, muna, susana, wani and i are going out!!!
(maybe gina? hope so!!)

the book fair

2009-05-31T05:39:00.000-07:00

books are so alive.
so real.

almost able to open another dimension and bring you to another life.

i experience that in libraries and all.
but the one i love most is the book warehouse fair at AMK!
the books are so.... nice!!!!!
like they are talking to me!
hahaha!

if i could,
i would want to have them all!
oh man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am delirious!!
hahahahaa~~

well,
on the same day,
i went studying with my sis and a friend.
i was pretty restless.
the restlessness is surely caused by the fair.
and that i cannot stop.
hahahahhaa!!!!

F.Y.I.: i bought two very amazing, nice, exciting AND cheap novels!
hahaa!!!

don't worry,
it's new.
=D

oooh!!
got to go!!
my sista and i are composing songs!!
will post it up if it is not so damn crappy!
hahahahaha!!!
muahz

the agony!!

2009-05-29T02:29:00.000-07:00

aw man!!!!!!!!!
i just got some kind of stomach flu!
sad isn't it?

the ice cream my dearest mama bought 3 days ago gave it to me.
it's infuriating that the rest of my family did not get it!!!!
oooooooooh!

man.
this ache is not only killing me,
it's giving me a sweat bath!
i think i have just sweated out 2 buckets of sweat!!!!
sigh....

ooh man!!
however even in my pain,
the new doctor i visited was damn bloody good-looking!!!!!
hahahahaa!!!

well,
last time,
because my mama said he is a bad doctor,
i do not go to him for treatments.
and since his name sounds so oldish,
i thought he would be pretty old and ugly.
but,
whoa mama!
hahahahaha!!!

ew,
i am crushing on my doctor.
ewX1000.
hahahahaa!!!

aw man!!
now i cannot go for my popular sales fair at expo and church!!
=/
hahaha!!!
man...
i want to go out.