if heaven is beautiful...
if the world is so perfect...
if music notes are really black and not purpur...
if games really are fun...
if i forget everyone i know...
if i can stop saying "if".
i am scared. actually not i-am-gonna-die scared, just, well, scared.
i told myself, it's not the real thing so who cares? but how come everytime the clock ticks, my heart bounces?
and the worse part is, i am studying like crazy for it! haha!!
i am so darn contradicting!
another great example today is that, today's service kind of sucks. why did i say that?
one, i was late for service. two, dear cell group leader is ignoring me again. (seriously, his eyes literally glanced pass me like an empty hole) three, this asshole from my cell group totally shut me out when i asked him a question. (i was trying to tell him that his zip's down, but he totally ignored me) four, i am the hell thinking about him. HIM. damn it. DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh........... the fourth one is most torturing. and well, when my mom asked me if i enjoyed myself, i said with mock enthusiam," totally!" what a fake. however, the preachings was a blast. =)
however, the highlight of today will be, (ta-da!) ICHIBAN SUSHI!!! a total woo-hoo! i ate salmon, taro, octopus(yums) and other crazy stuff my mom and sis dare not touch. and my mom finally entered a sushi resturant and yeah, she says it's cool. haha!!!! fun!!!!!!!!
after eating, i diligiently marched back home after dinner and study! okay, i did a little window shopping, but it's not my fault! a girl has got to get some air to breathe!!! hahahaha!!!
plus, breakfast tomorrow: MUFFINS!!! whoa. the muffin lady even said "HI" from afar. and know my fave muffins. hahahahhaha!!!!!!!!