oh my gosh.
i knew my heart was breaking.
everything that was used to contain it fell with it.
but something amazing happened.
almost too good to be true!




i was contemplating not going church.
but i did not make up the tummy ache to miss bible study,
because it's true!
however,
something within me prompted me to take a train back home.
in every single stop,
the prompting got more desperate,
more intimidating.



i was stuck.
i knew it.
i was going to turn back and go home.
sooner or later.


but felicia appeared out of nowhere,
and that silent voice immediately vanished.
like it was afraid of felicia!



i was still doubting,
the throbbing in my heart was hurting.
but when i stepped into church,
i relaxed.
my tensed shoulders slummed with ease.
and during praise and worship,
i just kept tearing my pain away.
every tear was like a skin,
peeled awya and let me float away into the gust of wind.



and.
i was free.
=)
jealousy was no longer my issue.
because i know i don't need to be with God here!
hahahaha!!!!!




oh,
and i bought a new little monster!!!
my collection is now four!!!!

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