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paint your love
the final score

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i'll betaking my time
take these chances and turn them around
because i cannot let myself regret again



SWEET HATRED

when it rains...

I want my world to be in clouds
i want this memories to be kept
this miracle will be locked
and no one will have to know



WAITING

ignorance

i'm not going anywhere



that's what you get

Sae
Beverley
muzi
3e2
syazwani
vincent
wei keat
adeline
gregory
Jian Hui
Ivy
Mrs Teo
tina
Sharyl
Jia Xuan
Jasmine
Shermin
Jearl
Gek Heong
Jocelyn
ferrone
Xiu Rong
ming hao
jing jie
licheng
lishan
kelly
coffee
Felicia
ChunHui
Xue Qun
Dickson



i wonder....

if heaven is beautiful...
if the world is so perfect...
if music notes are really black and not purpur...
if games really are fun...
if i forget everyone i know...
if i can stop saying "if".

i'm dreaming again

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i still try***

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

oh man.
my good good friend is here to intimidate me once more.
i cannot even focus!!!!
sighhhh.



and so,
i must focus on my studies more!!!
O'levels!!!
go go go~~~~



anddd,
God will do a miracle for me in every single way!
hahahaha!!!!



jasmine told me yesterday that christ is a very repetitive religion,
and many can get hooked on it.
but question is: how can you NOT get hooked???
hahaha!!!!


God is strangely irresistible.




anyways....
school tomorrow!!!!!

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Saturday, September 26, 2009

nooooo!
i passed my math bordered...
it's good in a sort of weird, failing-math way,
but bad in so many another way!
my L1R-something is awfully high!!!!!!
no no no!!!!!



this will NOT be done!
sighhh.......



i must focus on the big one!
and God will help me in every single way!
He will, yes He will!
hahaha!!!!!!




Go Go GO!!!!

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i've seen words that don't belong 5:03 AM


Thursday, September 24, 2009

whoa!!!!!!
prelims are finally over!!!!!
i have been waiting for too long!



so....
i have a feeling that tonight is going to be a good night!
hahhahahaha!




oh no!
my art was horrible!!!!
i think i wasted too much time daydreaming during the exam.
hahhahaa.


fun!


i wonder if there is a cheaper way to take art.......
i pray that there is is......
haha!!!




i am bored and tired.
and i just lost it.

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i've seen words that don't belong 12:28 AM


Sunday, September 20, 2009

i'm in love!
again!!!
and this time is the one i have always loved: God!
haha!


today,
i actually worshipped so fervently!
hahahaa!!!
:))


but worship until tired.
hahahaha.




oh no
i have no idea if i should go junior college....
or laselle.
it's tempting.
art is after the one i desire most.
but it's about the costs.
the price of the fee is not a laughing matter.....
but i so badly want to!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!


nevermind!
i shall let God decide my future.
:))
God will help in every single way!
haha!
yes he will lead the narrow way.......




nothing much to write about anyways.
however,
tomorrow=hari raya=study till your brains melt.
so sad.....
haha!




reading time~~~~

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i've seen words that don't belong 3:54 AM


Friday, September 18, 2009

when i hear paramore's my heart,
i feel so sad at the beginning.




stay with me...



then the chorus just gives nostalgia.
sadness and a clear mixture of happiness.
the blend is simply stunning.
it leaves you crying for something.....
or maybe someone?
:))




this heart, it beats, beats for only you...




haha!!!!
God is beautiful.

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i've seen words that don't belong 10:26 PM


Thursday, September 17, 2009

ok, there is the good news and bad news.
for those who wants the good news,
please look after a few lines.



if not,
then start scrolling, people!
haha!




anyways,
good news:
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
okay,
not official.
but!
that's alright.
i'm relaxing already!
hehe.




bad news:
wani lost her phone!
D:
saddening.
she left it in the classroom.
geeeez!!!!
she should know better than this man!
tsk tsk!
anyways,
i pray she can find a cheap and way better phone....
like mine!!!
:D
except mine is cheaper but worse.
haha.
but love the things God blessed you with.
:))



oh wells,
time to go read!
hahaha!!
i am still a good girl ok????
hahaha!

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i've seen words that don't belong 10:05 PM



She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies



With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba



So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
Or the wolves gonna blow it down




With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle




Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic


If it's not real
You can't see it with your eyes
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
Cause if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah





Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba...




brick by boring brick~!!!
what the hell??????
it's like so nice!
hahaha!!!

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i've seen words that don't belong 5:59 AM



this whole week i feel so... evil?
i kept doing things against my rules and principles...
now i feel so guilty and angry with myself,
with the devil...
i hate this!!!



and exams were plain crash.

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i've seen words that don't belong 5:26 AM


Sunday, September 13, 2009

awww man!!!
the exams are back again!
here comes the exams blues...
hahaha.



man,
i feel so tired... and mostly disturbed.
i am not sure what,
but it's there,
more overpowering than God's presence...
no wait!



God's power is always powerful!
sigh....
what is BOTHERING me!!!!!!!!!!?????




to that certain someone: he doesn't like you, stop trying so hard.

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i've seen words that don't belong 3:20 AM


Friday, September 11, 2009

today....
did not really do much,
go art,
get awfully dirty with medium,
come home exhausted,
then off to chinhee's house.
:D



got lost in the jungle of woodlands buildings.
pretty fun,
as we all planned to do some busking...
practise guitar and make money!
coooool!




haha.



aww well,
time for some cell group meeting!!!!!
to chin hee: GREAT HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, September 9, 2009






















some little pictures for art(relaxing) and for fun!
hahaha!!!
i'll miss gregory!
that sweet artist will be facing hell for two years in tekong!
:((

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i've seen words that don't belong 9:00 PM



i fall... again!
D:
but good thing i did not get any blood.
or i will seriously hate myself!
haha!



however,
a sprained ankle is not really something to celebrate about.



geeeez!
if only people get hurt and can immediately heal.
cool riiight?




and worse part is i cannot believe i cried!!!!!
noooo!
hahaha!
that is so dumb.
i cannot believe it.....
but the sad part is my dearest mother said,
"no need to go doctor one laa."



ummm,
what the hell?




anyways,
very tired now.
better sleep.
nights!!!
:)

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i've seen words that don't belong 7:19 AM


Tuesday, September 8, 2009

studying once more...
but tomorrow there will be a guitar lesson with greg!
:)


something to look forward, i guess.
haha!
i love the way greg just smile at his music,
enjoying every single sound he makes.
hahha!




i guess i am just jealous?
hahaha!



aw well....
i got television to watch!
and tomorrow must study!
pray for me!!!
haha!

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i've seen words that don't belong 4:10 AM


Monday, September 7, 2009

ooooh~~~
i am so damn ready for prelims art...
(although i am only ready for art)
open up our hearts, Lord, and rain it down!
this will be so fun.



hahhaaha!!!
fun!



will be putting the painting picture if i am allowed to take.
hahahaha~
Lord is going to bless me!
:D

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i've seen words that don't belong 1:38 AM


Saturday, September 5, 2009

am i suppose to go on being trampled on?
what is this?
i am not some rag on the ground for you to step on it when you like...




stop giving me crazy mixed-up emotions.
it's driving me up the damned wall.
i am trying my best to ignore you.


i guess it's not working well,
because i still think about you
once in a blue moon.
and this blue moon is pretty much everyday....
i have always prayed that a miracle can happen on me,
this stupid, blind and hopeless me.




stop it.
leave me alone.
you asked what will make me happy...
and i am replying you tonight,
"you staying away from me."





i don't want this to go on.............
anymore.

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i've seen words that don't belong 2:25 AM



since someone have complained that she is not added into the names of birtday wishes thing,
here it goes.....


KELLY KO KIAK KIAK!!!!!
THANK YOU FOR WISHING ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAY~~~~~~

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i've seen words that don't belong 2:21 AM



whoa!
finally i got into this damn blog!
haha!
sorry for the no-updates...
exams never spare a thought on my free times.
sad isn't it?



oh man!
i have finally slimmed down!
four kilograms of unnecessary weight is shed-ed!
yay!
hahahaha!
go go!
my goal: 55kg!
let us continue leaning onto God!
:D




anyways,
the purpose of my signing in: i am have trouble in art!
no no no!
i painted finish my canvas(finally much?),
however,
it is seriously still nameless!


man!
this is worse than getting a name for a baby!
babies do not have... meanings.
like they are not subjects.
you can call the baby mud for all you want!
haha.



BUT!
my point is....
i have no idea what to call it...
and dear wani is charging up her brain cells for me.
so sweet!
:)


however,
i shall pray on this......
nothing is going to break God's child!
haha!
oh hopefully janel can make it to church tomorrow tooooo.....

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

it's nothing much.
everything went a little differently actually.
:/



one, felicia bought a VERY feminine handbag for me.
two, i wanted chocolate cake, something i always love, but i got a huge damn fruit cake.
(i don't understnad... fruit and chocolate don't even sound alike!)
two, i eyed a bag and dear mother said she will NOT interfere with me buying it.
but she did.
and i am forbidden to buy the bag.
three, i cannot find any present i want.
there's a lot more.




but i received many greetings :)
chunhui, fedeline, ms yvonne(whoa), gina, wani, wenjing(she remembered!), sujun, benny(!!!!!), farah, felicia and tina(ahaha!!) and that's it....
thanks all!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahha!!!!



but despite all, i still love my birthday
:)
you have no idea how much!
hahaha!



oh, and happy birthday to dear manisha, jiaying and susana!

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i've seen words that don't belong 7:45 AM



i don't believe it.
i don't understand it.
but it's there.



it's dancing in gregory's eyes as he strums his guitar.
as gregory plays,
he lets his emotions run free in his music,
emotions he can't express is express in his music,
while his soul dancing to every strumming.



he's in love.




and i can feel his love, his wonders.
and i was doubtful.
i knew with all my heart,
that i won't find this depth of love from within me.
except, maybe, painting?
it's easy when it's your talent and love.
but not when it's others.




i envy greg.
in every way.
his passion,
his love,
his strength.
his.... everything.
sigh..........................





but i seriously learn something from him.
doing something without persistence will never work its way out.
:)
and i will do this guitar right!






i'm going to seriously make a noise for God!!!!!!!

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